You make me like myself. You make me feel.. good.. about myself. I miss you.

C

I’m in love with you. I’m sure of it.

C

I wish. I wish. I wish you would talk to me. I sent you a letter full of everything you could ever want to know. You asked me, you told me; “Tell me everything.” and I did. I let go of insecurities and worries and told you everything I was thinking. I’m positive you received the letter, but you don’t even have the courtesy to tell me you have. How could you do that to me? Your silence hurts me more than anything. I want to know your side. I.. I need to know. You asked me to tell you and I did. Now it’s your turn and you’re not giving me anything back.

C

thank you for weathering the storms. i am forever grateful that i have found someone who believes in the same love that i do. i cannot wait to spend this life with you.

love,
the woman who will never break your heart

Through the magic of facebook, I am now ‘friends’ again with you all. All of you whom I have left and hurt at one time or another.

My isn’t this strange.

But I see that you there, N. are married. And you too, C! Congrats to you both! C. has just had a lovely baby boy, and N’s wife just had his second child. K. you tell me that your work is going well and you are hanging out with old friends again. The other K. just had his second son and had a fantastic wedding, if the photos show anything. B. is living it up in California with a lovely girlfriend. E. has been married for a year now. F.’s girlfriend is model-beautiful, and P’s little girl is too-die-for cute!

So see? You are all happy and in love and (most of you) have beautiful children of your own.

Myself, I am happily married (no kids) and glad that we are friends again.

It all turned out alright in the end now, didn’t it?

A.

I can’t believe it has been six months since I last saw your smile, since I last felt your arms around me, holding me tight and protecting me from the big bad wolves of this world. You were my protector, and one week later, you dropped me into this lonely abyss of “brokenheartedness”.

When I first met you, you worked at nothing more than to annoy me cause, as I find out later on, you were falling in love with my frown. What a strange notion, to fall in love with a frown. The first time you told me about falling in love with my frown, I felt like crying. Who falls in love with a frown?

and you said you do…because I looked so beautiful frowning, you were sure I’d look like a sweet angel smiling.

Two years, countless smiles, hugs, and kisses, you alone decided to throwaway two years of our love without warning. You told me to go away, you made me leave, even if I was fighting you every step of the way..I didn’t want to leave. I wanted to be there by your side through your ups and downs.

I wanted to be at your graduation, I wanted to celebrate with you when you passed the bar, I wanted to hold your hand when tragedy struck…I wanted to be there for you. Even with all the pain caused between us, I was willing to let go, forgive, forget, because I knew that the love we shared was real and worth it. But you made me go…you threw US away.

I thought we were forever, you promised me forever. And I don’t know how to move forward from these broken promises holding on to the remnants of my heart.

I still love you, you know, even if I show everyone I don’t. I still cry when I hear our song, and I feel a tug in my heart when I see the necklace you gave me. I sleep with one pillow less, the one you gave me to hug tight when you can’t be there to protect me from all the evils of the world.

So much time has passed, and I’m different now. I’m sure you are too…but one thing is the same…

I’m still in love with you. And, I choose to love you still.

Hopelessly in love,
Puss In Boots

“it started way back in third grade.”